Steve and Laura Redux

I have this admirer that doesn't understand my standpoint in our ever-so-new relationship. He wants thing to still come as easy as it did the first date, but I really do not want to let my feelings -or his for this matter- get wrapped up in the moment. Things were going well then turned for the worse when his persistence began to make me feel kinda uncomfortable. I am unfamiliar with such attention (sadly) and ask him to tone down his advances. I was glad he took head of what I asked, though he is still sort of pushing me. Even as a “friend” he overwhelms me with attention and gifts. ‘Too much,’ I tell him...it’s too much for me to swallow, even as your friend. He even went as far to blast me on Facebook.

Says it is hard trying to love a woman who has never truly received a mans love before. They think there are strings attached or you’re strange for treating them good. I need all my sistas on face book to pray for me because I trying to show a young woman some love and she keeps throwing it back in my face. It would hurt me to let her go so please pray for me. [signed]

I then responded with:

If she wants, or is ready to receive this love, appreciation, favor from you--or any man--she will take it...Just know you're a good guy, be cautious of putting all your feelings out there. Some women need to be spoon-fed such emotion...it'...s an acquired taste...if she is truly the butterfly for your valley of lilies, let her go and she may fly back to you...give a chance for the angels to speak...no need to break it down to her, I think she gets it. She can read these heart filled prayers, unless she's that dense to know this is directed to her. But, may I ask, are you listening to her reasoning...?

I talked this over with one of my favorite cousins, after she calmed from saying he was a little crazy, she said he’s like Steve Urkel and I’m Laura Winslow from Family Matters. He’s trying to wear me down.

I like him as a person. I love his relationship with God and we have things in common. Why am I so resistant? It‘s not that unlike some guys he actually pays me attention...it’s his persistence is a bit overwhelming. Hard to swallow. Most of the times I want to tell him these three words :

GO HOME STEVE

ASL He Wants It All

I took sign language to learn a new language...something new to do...something to keep my mind off being single...A family friend ask me why I decided to take ASL, I answered 'the same reason someone would take CPR...just in case.'  I have unfortunately let some of my gifts slip away from me, playing piano, dance and public speaking. But yesterday, I was able to reclaim a small portion of them.

Book ends ROCK!

My supervisor told me something really insightful…she does that sometimes. But she gave me a new mantra in a matter of speaking, to put things in a better perspective. It goes a little like this- I’m still working on the syntax for flow- I am a bookend; the Boss Man is the other, and without one of us, things will likely tumble and fall. This has prevented me from shaking this individual for believing I have nothing else to do besides creating a name badge for an event happening in a couple hours…this person knew of this for a while and when I could scrounge up something, she turns her nose. I gladly informed her my source of this beautiful last minute project had left for the day. I wanted to continue and say ‘deal with it punk’…but I refrained.

I miss this feeling...

 I am ready to love again

Letter to ALL the Haters

Dear Hater of Stefanie 10.0,

Do not be mad because I am hotter than you on a 100degree day; fresher than you after bathing seven times in the Jordan River. Just stop trying to be better than me and be YOUR best; ‘cuz Sweetie, this isn’t even close to my best. If you’re attempting to do better than me, you must supersede to the product I have put out this passed as I admittedly confess I have been half-steppin’.

You do you this year and maybe you will earn the accolades you think you deserve. I’m taking it up a notch and I may make your head spin. It's a new day and it looks like you need to get it together.

Sincerely

Stef

Should I give up this dream?

It seems like I'm never going to graduate. I can barely get a fair chance. I think it is because no one else in my house has been in this situation, working on a degree further than an Associates degree. When you get to the upper level courses, you have to dedicate a different mindset, put aside more study time.The fact I can not succeed in one course is a bit ridiculous.

One may say, "well you have time to blog," but it's not the same. Blogging, for me is generally a bunch of run on sentences of whatever comes to my head, whereas studying and writing term papers require a bit more preparation. By the time I get ready to write a composition, I'm being harassed about being at the computer.

Also, my family plays the guilt card occasionally to get me to cut study time to spend it with the family. I don't get it...I truly do not understand.

Boooo...hisssss

I can't stand when someone feels the need to speak on my behalf. If I can not talk, I'll write it down; can't write, I'll mime it out. Just because you believe I am hindered by a situation and do not find me complaining, does not give you the right to rant on about something you would even dare to operate.