REALLY DUDE!?!

Really Dude!?! So you act like a little punk now the Wolf is real…yeah, I figured as much. This prodigal son act is getting real old. We don’t have no more rings, robes or fatten calves to give. How you just going to spit, no what you really just did, squat and take a crap on EVERYONE that has done nothing but help your shirtless fool-tail. You get a job, and act like you don’t want it…get you back in school, and you don’t even carry a pencil. And I had the nerve to write a letter for you to keep your funky butt from being put under the prison…so, fuck me…no, I got a real man to do that. How dare you?


I pray for this baby…praying hard…I pray His will be done and it makes you bump your head so hard making you come to the realization of what’s needed to be done. This child didn’t ask to be here, and you knew he was coming. You should have prepared…started to be a man. You call this kid your pride and joy, but will he be able to say something parallel to his father?

You always want to have this ‘whoa as me’ attitude and not do anything about it…say you’re grown…grown men wear shirts…Lord help you

I took those words to heart. So thanks, I love you too.

Steve and Laura Redux

I have this admirer that doesn't understand my standpoint in our ever-so-new relationship. He wants thing to still come as easy as it did the first date, but I really do not want to let my feelings -or his for this matter- get wrapped up in the moment. Things were going well then turned for the worse when his persistence began to make me feel kinda uncomfortable. I am unfamiliar with such attention (sadly) and ask him to tone down his advances. I was glad he took head of what I asked, though he is still sort of pushing me. Even as a “friend” he overwhelms me with attention and gifts. ‘Too much,’ I tell him...it’s too much for me to swallow, even as your friend. He even went as far to blast me on Facebook.

Says it is hard trying to love a woman who has never truly received a mans love before. They think there are strings attached or you’re strange for treating them good. I need all my sistas on face book to pray for me because I trying to show a young woman some love and she keeps throwing it back in my face. It would hurt me to let her go so please pray for me. [signed]

I then responded with:

If she wants, or is ready to receive this love, appreciation, favor from you--or any man--she will take it...Just know you're a good guy, be cautious of putting all your feelings out there. Some women need to be spoon-fed such emotion...it'...s an acquired taste...if she is truly the butterfly for your valley of lilies, let her go and she may fly back to you...give a chance for the angels to speak...no need to break it down to her, I think she gets it. She can read these heart filled prayers, unless she's that dense to know this is directed to her. But, may I ask, are you listening to her reasoning...?

I talked this over with one of my favorite cousins, after she calmed from saying he was a little crazy, she said he’s like Steve Urkel and I’m Laura Winslow from Family Matters. He’s trying to wear me down.

I like him as a person. I love his relationship with God and we have things in common. Why am I so resistant? It‘s not that unlike some guys he actually pays me attention...it’s his persistence is a bit overwhelming. Hard to swallow. Most of the times I want to tell him these three words :

GO HOME STEVE

ASL He Wants It All

I took sign language to learn a new language...something new to do...something to keep my mind off being single...A family friend ask me why I decided to take ASL, I answered 'the same reason someone would take CPR...just in case.'  I have unfortunately let some of my gifts slip away from me, playing piano, dance and public speaking. But yesterday, I was able to reclaim a small portion of them.

Book ends ROCK!

My supervisor told me something really insightful…she does that sometimes. But she gave me a new mantra in a matter of speaking, to put things in a better perspective. It goes a little like this- I’m still working on the syntax for flow- I am a bookend; the Boss Man is the other, and without one of us, things will likely tumble and fall. This has prevented me from shaking this individual for believing I have nothing else to do besides creating a name badge for an event happening in a couple hours…this person knew of this for a while and when I could scrounge up something, she turns her nose. I gladly informed her my source of this beautiful last minute project had left for the day. I wanted to continue and say ‘deal with it punk’…but I refrained.